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Just meandering through my head right now. not a lot going on up there, but what is going on is usually focused on payne...

God I hate the fact that it's been two months since that argument and she's still all i think about. like, I'm not sure what to do right now. therapists have said keep busy and not think about it, but that's somewhat impossible....she always seems to creep up on me....it seems like she'll just always be "what might have been" in my head. I miss her a lot, and how happy i used to be when we weren't arguing....then we both screwed it up, so I guess, I do need to get over it, it's just a lot tougher than it really should be right now...it's kind of ridiculous.

Anyway, I'm contemplating taking a political job here at home. finally one that'll pay, so it should be fun. I hope I can get in contact with people to arrange to get the job. We'll see what happens there eh?

I've been listening to a lot of People in Planes lately, the song "Last Man standing" is pretty awesome...in addition to People in Planes I've been listening to Luna and Matt&Kim. all pretty good. but they haven't been lifting my mood, which is quite alright really, cuz I don't know what to do about said mood. whatever though.

Anyway, I've been reading a lot lately, i read twilight. and god that was an AWFUL book. just plain horrible. not going to say anymore to that, but i've been reading "The Forgotten Man" by Amnity Schales about the Depression, it's good stuff. and I plan on doing a LOT of reading this summer. So that should keep me occupied eventually.

Anyway, my head is just all over the place...and will be for a while.